By Lauren V. Macaraeg #LaurenMacDoodles
Can I request again that you please go easy on me & Mama Uni, dear family & friends? 😅❤️😂 You don’t have to make our load lighter, just please don’t make it heavier. 🎒 I may now be socially active again since September 2018 for the love of family & the sake of work, so I understand if some assume that I’m 100% well already. But while I am better, I am still seeking full physical, emotional, spiritual & mental healing up to now. So hinay-hinay lang po sana please sa pressure, requests & complaints, although alam ko namang hindi intention ng iba na ma-stress ako. ☺️ Reminder lang po ito that I can’t handle pressure & negativity as easily as I used to. Yung kaya kong tawanan in the past, minsan naiiyak na ako ngayon. At hindi niyo ako gusto makitang umiyak, kasi ang chaka ko pag nag-e-emote. 😹 While I really am enjoying hanging out with family, I have to admit that I feel physically tired & emotionally drained this week after back-to-back family events. It’s largely because of my choice to push myself, even if I already feel physically weak & low-energy this week, to attend consecutive major family reunions. And of course, it’s already a given for my mom & me to spend time with my 92 year old grandmother, Lola Nelly Macaraeg, who is now back in the Philippines. Though my mom & I do our best to continue to give our best efforts to our family in spite of our ongoing personal challenges & limited strength & resources, there are times when we can’t meet everyone’s expectations. Nag-e-effort naman kami, pero tao din lang kami. Yung mga bagay na some take for granted? Hindi naman lagi iyong madaling gawin para sa amin. I’m just saying this so you will understand better where we’re coming from. There’s no need to appreciate us, but we do hope for your understanding & consideration at least. I really appreciate everyone who has been patient & understanding with our limitations & weaknesses these days. I also appreciate everyone who made efforts to make life easier & happier for us, especially at our recent family visits & gatherings. Nakakalakas at nakakagaan ng loob. And of course, I appreciate all the delicious food that we feasted on this week, woohoo! *burp* I love you guys, and the moments that I spent with family lately have been priceless, especially during this Undas season. So I have no regrets pushing myself way beyond my physical & mental strength lately just to be with you all. I would do it all over again to gain the precious conversations, hilarious bloopers & bonding moments that we had during this week (Undas 2018 family blog post to follow!). At hayaan niyo, I am also helping to strengthen myself so I can hopefully have more energy for the days to come. In order to recharge myself, I relaxed through music today: During the only day of the week without a scheduled family reunion or visit, I spent time dancing through Zumba (wapakels kahit mukha akong ewan sumayaw 😂💃😜), singing like a lunatic, listening to music & just spending time by myself under the trees, listening to the rustle of the leaves, as you can see from my #Talikogenic picture lol. 🌳 Heads up: I am praying & considering taking another social break & social media break soon. My original idea was to start my new break this November. However, there are many balikbayans we have to meet & some long-delayed photo albums I want to try to post, especially for the sake of the oldest & youngest members of the family. It means I will try to delay my next social break for now. To be honest though, I’m not sure how much longer I can manage to sustain this high level of family activities, not because I don’t have fun with my loved ones, but because the introvert part of me craves more solitude than I can give myself at the moment. Siguro, nagka-sunud-sunod lang ang occasions. Yes, sa family pa lang yan. I want to thank my friends for your understanding kung hindi pa ako maka-bonding with you all, kasi sa pamilya pa lang, overwhelming na sa dami ng dapat puntahan at gawin. Ang tawag ko dati sa pamilya ay “tribe”, dapat ata ay “nation” na haha. Please pray for good health, strength, patience & joy for Mama Uni & me & our family, especially the seniors & babies. Please pray that the Lord Jesus will sustain us & re-energize us as we keep trying to do our best for our family. We are all not perfect, but we love you all in spite of our imperfections and yours. Hugs from Lauren, Mama Uni & Cutie the Cat 😻
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#Live4Infinity #LifeProject by #LaurenVMacaraeg #LaurenMacDoodles 🌟 : “PLEASE GO EASY ON ME & MAMA UNI #LIVE4INFINITY #REQUEST” (Photo from today, November 3, 2018) Written today 11.03.2018. 😅🎒❤️😂😻🌳💃
#Family #Undas #Undas2018 #2018 #Request #Patience #Consideration #Understanding #Talikogenic
#ProjectHEAL: After Old & Before New #SocialBreak #SocialMediaBreak #Honesty #Openness #Catharsis #Forgiveness #ThankYou #Love #Forgiveness #MyFavoriteThings #Pink #Cats #Kittens #Outdoors #Fitness #HappyAwkwardDance
#ProjectTIME: #Family #Friends #LaurenAndMamu #MeTime #SelfDate #ADateWithMyself #MamaUniAndMe #MamaAndMe #CutieTheCat #Cutie #Cuteings #Love #LoveIsSpelledTIME #GodWithUs 🐈🐱😻❤️👸👧💃
To Follow Later On When I Get Better: #ProjectPICMIRACLE #ProjectTHANKYOU #ProjectHELLO
#MentalHealthAwareness #Healing #Recovery
#LaurenMacScribbles #LaurenMacKulit #KidsAtHeart #AmazingGrace
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